Treading the Spiritual path

I saw the quote at the beginning of this months update and it reflects my constant question and internal battle about walking a spiritual path and living in a 'normal world'.  Sometimes I just wonder will it ever be different and then I have to remind myself how far I have come, along with the world around me, and all that I am accomplishing now.  Yet I get tired of the separation and the constant battle to keep moving forward, even though I know that I am walking towards oneness.  Sometimes it would be nice to get off and rest.  But life keeps barrelling along, the good the bad and the stupid... me tonight that is.  Managed to get hot soup to jump out of the blender down my arm and on my face! Oh Hell!  What was I thinking to create that!  So I guess that is living the normal life and seeing the funny side with hot tomato soup all over the kitchen walls, floors and me and my brand new shirt is the spiritual way!

Chocolate and No Sleep!

Hi guys
I often seem to be somewhere in the world writing this blog.  This month I am in Sweden, studying Meta-coaching.  I am half way through the course, my brain is pickled, my eyes are hanging out of their eye sockets and chocolate is the only sane thing I can think of to save me.  Supposedly this is normal.  They put you in the pressure cooker to see how you cope and then if you can cope with this then the real world is a piece of cake....Just give me chocolate, I can cope with that!
Today, I hope was my bottom of the roller coaster.  I had a challenging person benchmarking my coaching session.  Apparently I didn't achieve anything, or so he thought.  My coachee had a different experience, but she wasn't valid.  Huh! So now the clients aren't valid.  When did that happen, did they change Coaching 101?
So this is me in my head... "This guy is an idiot," then the other voice goes, "no listen to what he has to say, some of it is valid, you are just making judgements around one thing, he has rubbed you up the wrong way and you are better than this."  "Oh no he has just told me something I did, which I didn't.  Wait I have proof, I'll show him!...  See you weren't right....  No you didn't listen and you didn't listen previously either. Idiot!"  "Dawn judgement!  Listen to what he has to say, he is only human."  "Yes but so am I!!! AArrggghhh!"
Ok So I guess you get the picture.  It isn't enough that I have to unpack all my previous learning and become a helpless pooping baby again, I have to get a babysitter who thinks he is god and missed that he didn't even make angel grade.
Man, so chocolate right now is welcome, even though I was working on kicking sugar totally, today kind of put the spanner in that one.
So this month I am working on Judgement and making sure I have clear intentions for the rest of the week.   So my intention is that by the time you see me at the next DCN meeting I will be bright and shiny, without my training wheels on.
Aaarrgghhh!

Weather predictor of Self

Well it is now September and almost like a switch the trees have started to turn and there is a definite chill in the air.
It feels like (I am very kineasthetic if you hadn't noticed) there is a change a foot or the end of change is here.  Interesting this year I haven't had the energy levels that I am normally used to, and if I relate that to the way the weather has been this year, there is a strong reflection.  Winter was extra cold and wet or snowy, spring was a relief and summer never really got off the ground, which kind of reflects me this year and how I have played out.  Really suffering in the winter with low energy and enthusiasm, not wanting to really do much, too cold, too snowy, too something.  Spring was a relief, I felt the tide was starting to turn, then when summer was supposedly here but not quite then my energy levels started returning but not quite.  And now Autumn is here, there is a anoother change and I feel there is another change in me.  Hopefully the winter will be a lot milder this year and my energy levels will return to normal.... finally!  That would be wonderful and welcoming.

Non-attachment

For some reason when I update the DCN blogsite this is the last thing I do. I get frustrated with technology as the blog wants to do it's own thing. Throw spaces into places I don't want, loose hyper links, change formatting and you get the picture. There just comes a time when you go "oh that will do, its 12 am and I need sleep." And it is getting close to that now.

Maybe that is part of this months topic of Non-attachment. At what point do you fight with the unseen forces struggling to make it 'perfect' and at what point do you let go. With this it is when sleep is needed but maybe there is a place before that, like before I start!

I have found the state of mind of non-attachment a difficult one over the years. And it wasn't until my body got it experientially that I understood that it was still ok to create desires, goals and visions. It was just the ability to let them go, give them up to the universe and not mind if i got there or not. So no nashing of teeth or wailing loudly when I didn't get 'what I wanted.' It is just ok and I know that something better is out there for me.

The real challenge for me was loosing Abbey-cat last year. She had been with us for 11 years and I treasure each moment she spent with us. Letting her go wasn't easy. Being attached to people and animals is the hardest. Concepts, events and things I am working at mastering, but this might take another life-time.

So where are you in your journey of non-attachment. Have you experienced moments of it, or is it still a mystic mumbo jumbo?

2010 reflection

Not sure about this year yet but it is certainly one for lots of change. There seems to be lots of change happening around me this year and as well as lots of inner change. And there seems to be lots of change for my friends as well. Everything is appearing as clear as mud. Yet it is all unfolding perfectly for whatever reason. And it all makes sense once you I have gone through it. Hmmmmm intersting start to the decade.


It is a challenge to stay in that place of the unknown and to trust that the universe will guide and support, yet it does everytime. The more I step into that trust I guess the more I am being challenged to trust. Sometimes I want to do something crazy like "Aaarrggghhh" and hope like hell that it will make it all clear.


Also with the quickening of time there doesn't seem the space to stop and breath before taking the next step. It is just "I'm here, I'm here. Cool! Deep breath. Let's go!" I feel a lot like this at the moment.

It is certainly a new energy for me. Not sure whether I should get used to it or hope it passes soon. Maybe i will just stay open to the universe and trust.

Life's Lessons

I find that life is a continually amazing journey. And often I don't understand it, and sometimes I get the wonderful gift of understanding in hindsight. But more often than not my journey is like being blind, wondering along in the dark, hands out feeling my way. Someone asked me today what I wanted out of this year, to be honest I wasn't really sure what to answer.

I am especially aware of my own challenges this year. My physical energy levels are way down, and I tire really easy. I have stopped my yoga practice so that my overstretched tendons in the back of my thighs might finally heal, I have suffered this season with the worst hayfever ever and my digestive fire seems to be weakening! On top of that it seems that I am about to step into a minefield at work which I need to coach others through. hmmmm!

Yet at the back of my mind, I know there is a reason to all of this, even if it isn't clear to me now. So I just need to trust and go with the flow. Let go of how I must be or how life must be. Let go of my yoga practice and the ego of how I must teach yoga. Maybe this is a phase of redefinition or realignment.

Whatever it is, I am finding that by letting go the journey is definately easier though not easy. And staying the observer is the key, though it is a challenge I am embracing.

This year appears to be challenging to many in different ways. If nothing else, through all these challenges it is a good time to stop and appreciate the good things that are around you and the great people in your life. If you do nothing other than that today then you have achieved alot!

For all of you having a challenging time, think of everyone else that is and send them your love, so that they can receive your good vibes and then they will come bounding back to you in return.
Namaste
:-)

Spending time with me

How often do you get to spend a day with you...no one else, just you.

Well I did yesterday and it was great. PJ is in Brazil and I realised my body was craving a retreat, time to do nothing, just relax and let go. So I decided to have a mini retreat at home. So my day was spent meditating, cooking yummy vegan meals, and processing. I read a little out of the Yoga sutras but nothing much else. My body really was craving the stillness that comes with doing nothing. Even watching my fantastic spiritual movies didn't entice me. And I loved it!

You should give it go and see what unfolds from allowing the space for nothing. Today I feel easy, life is great and things are ok again.

And I thank myself for listening to me...try it it is great.

Join Facebook's new Divine Connection Network group

Facebook Divine Connection Network

All going well if you click the link above you will be directed to the page for the new group I have created. This is a group that you can only join by invitation or by requesting an invitation. It is closed to the public, though the public can see there is a group but none of the members, events or detailed information. And group members can connect to each other.
Many of the group wanted a means of being able to contact each other between events. As most people I talk to use facebook it seems the obvious means of connecting to each other. So lets see if it works. Your feedback will be in invaluable whilst I learn how to use this and you experiment with how it works for you.
Remember by joining the group you are giving permission to other members to connect with you away from the organised group meetings.

2010 - A new year begins

Happy New Year!

It seems lots of people I have talked to over the festive break are thankful that 2009 has finished and are looking forward to 2010 and all the opportunities that a new year brings.

As I look back over the last six months it seems that many of my friends faced the challenge of coping with a parent being diagnosed with cancers, tumours or other such life threatening diseases. And there were others around me who were just very ill. Then there was the marriage breakups, the economic melt down, and many other crazy things. As I look at all this sickness of body, heart and mind I know it is not that I have reached that age where this happens, but the energy of our universe and our interactions with it that are bringing about such challenges. PJ, my husband made me think when he said that maybe at the quantum level all this ecomomic chaos must be having an energetic effect. Food for thought.

I was reading tonight in Brandon Bays new book, 'Consciousness The New Currency', how we so often sabotage things for ourselves to stop ourselves moving forward and opening up to lifes abundance. Are we resisiting at a global level opening up into the energetic shift of Consiousness that has been talked about for the last few years?

In my experience before the biggest breakthroughs are the biggest resistances. Is that what is happening? More food for thought. So roll on 2010, I am looking forward to what you have to offer and how I can overcome my own resistances and face this new decade.